Hope you get a good laugh...

So I thought I would take you all on a walk down memory lane...we were pretty cute back in the day :)

Waiting for the laundry...

So I'm sitting at my dad's house doing laundry and was checking my internet stuff and felt the need to write a blog. I feel like I haven't really been able to share what is going on in my head and I think that I should start doing that because this is a safe place to do that I guess. Anyway for the last 4 or so months I have been going to counseling and been on medication for depression. I think it was triggered by the transition of moving away from most of what I was familiar with and starting out more or less on my own. I actually love Iowa State and really enjoy living in Ames and I have made friends...so on and so forth so it still perplexes me why I became so depressed. I have come to find out that there are a lot of things in my life that I just wasn't really taking control of and that by taking more control of them it has made a huge difference. I also have come to see that depression is not necessarily something one can control and that it is not something that I did or am "making up" or using as and "excuse" for things that I felt were wrong. I am working on being more organized and not procrastinating (emphasize working on) and I have been going to the gym and being more physically active. I also have had a lot of problems with my sleep patterns and that is gradually getting better as well. Now, I am not a patient person and this has been a huge struggle for me in waiting for results or I guess you could say feeling better. I can tell a major change but I still have a lot of work to do. I have started going back to church because it has become a peaceful and rejuvenating place again (I have had a lot of issues in the past with this) but I have come to that after realizing that my personal faith has remained strong in spite of any resentment I have towards the establishment or the group of people that I had started to link to the "church". This is a recent development but I think that it is one thing that has really made a major change in my attitude and my energy and my outlook on life. It's really a great feeling to know that when nothing else seems good that God is really still there waiting for you to come back to Him. Anyway I think it's about time to go check on my laundry and hopefully head for bed soon. Hope you all have a great rest of the weekend.

I was waiting for something interesting to happen...

Well it hasn't happened as of yet, but I feel like I should have something exciting or at least insightful to talk about in my blogging. But I feel bad for not posting anything for so long so I thought I would share some of what has been going on in my mundane life. I am definitely excited that I only have a week and 2 days of classes left, then 2 days of finals. I am so ready for it to be done but it actually flew by. I have one more assignment to complete and I was going to work on that tonite, but after doing 2 others I just couldn't make myself do another one. I also haven't finished reading the book that I'm supposed to do the paper about, but that's really not relevant, right? Other than that...I have about the same time until I move into my new apartment. We're moving my stuff on the day before my finals so that will be exciting. I love being in a new place. The most exciting part of it all is that I will have my own washer and dryer in my apartment so I don't have to save quarters or plan out when I'm going to do my laundry. You don't realize how nice it is until you lose it. Zora won't be moving his stuff out until May 17th when he gets done with school and that's when we get most of our real furniture because his mom is moving and giving us a lot of her stuff which is awesome. So anyway, just thought I would let you all know what was going on with me.